Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Forget Me Not Moments

Today, I had many "forget me not moments" as I'm deeming them on my blog.

I loved walking into Abby's room tonight with her cup of water and hearing her brother  Gabe praying over her - that was precious!

I loved rocking Abby back and forth singing her "Holy, Holy. Holy" but tonight she put her hand over my mouth and exclaimed " I do it!" She sang "Holy Holy Holy over and over again - I guess they are the only words she knows - I love it!

Drew told me I was the best mother in the whole world because I bought him a Da Vinci flying replica for him to create with.

Gabe called his Daddy and jumped up and down on the phone - so proud that he finished the first Explode the Code book! He is so proud of himself for accomplishing this goal.

The Big Dig started today - I finally found a Bible devotional book that I love! We have finished the ABC Bible verses (though Abby will still get a turn now just the  two of us!) and the Big Truths for Little Kids we've done for a year so its getting a little old. While I was reading in Luke 1 tonight, Drew invariably asked what a Virgin was - since she was the  virgin Mary! We studied the book of John two years ago, so I'm excited to spend this year in Luke! 

We had a great day - I had hoped to make it to the park, but instead we stayed home and built the circuit rover, then proceeded to drive it all over the back yard. It really was a glorious day that ended with a trip around the block so the kids could run off some energy.


Sunday, April 14, 2013


Life is a conundrum of ups and downs, the last few years have had many. Its interesting to sit and blog about our life, I want my kids to remember the fun, exciting and routines of our daily life, but there is also the reality that we struggle, others struggle in this life. There is a lot of suffering in our world today and its hard for me to dream of raising my children and preparing them for such a world. I was telling John that it makes me want to "run for shelter in the mountains" like the remnant will do in the Great Tribulation. I've spent the last 18 months studying the book of Revelation Precept by Precept and I tell you what - "it aint pretty!"  What do I do with that as a mother, prepare, hide, protect, shelter, cry? There are things going on in the darkness that  I couldn't even blog about or talk to my husband about. Just yesterday a friend posted a vimeo video on the man now on trial for literally delivering live babies and then killing them prior to them taking their first breath. I'm still in tears and only made it 8 minutes into the film. I want to be educated but this world is so dark that even the things previously done in the darkness are coming acceptable. I am so glad this place is not my home, but raising counter cultural kids who are prepared for such an oppressive and evil society is a hard thing for me to wrap my brain around.

Some friends and I are reading the book Desperate by Sara Mae and Sally Clarkson - we went and watched their interview in Euless last month and had our picture taken with Sara. She is so sweet! I really appreciated the chapter on depression and the very real problem that effects most people in seasons of life. I struggle with it every January - I have since puberty hit around 16. I appreciate their honesty and their suggestions on lighting a candle, reading a book, talking with a friend, etc. I can't say it wasn't something I didn't know, but the encouragement from mom's ahead of me that this is normal for a season - normally when life is busy and hectic and your sleep deprived!

 I've become more of a reader in the last few months, trying to avoid facebook and spend more time seeking the encouragement and support of other mom's who have gone before me. A lot of the books are on finding joy and the rest are on homeschooling. I am excited to have the boys home next year and follow the schedule I prepared, I love homeschooling them (Abby too though she is just into books and sensory bins - nothing formal). The time I spend each day with the kids teaching is the highlight of my day - God has been so gracious to give me a passion for educating them.  I never dreamed I would love it this much.

At dinner each night we share some of our highs and low's from the day, so I thought I'd list some of my high's and low's from these past few months.

  • Not sleeping great these days, always tired but can't sleep, or sleep too much at the wrong times
  • High's/Lowe's of depression season were not as easily handled with natural methods this year.
  • work stresses that make me want to give up or quit
  • Drew is struggling with reading, even with the extra year, the pediatric ophthalmologist specialist says it directly relates to his vision problems that are not correctable - but he will adapt and come up with his own methods as he gets older.
  • John's back and hand pain are getting worse, he is tired a lot and not quite himself
  • Sickness has been rampant in our house since December - tired and weary
  • house selling debacle cost us some money to get worked out- still in our house and working on being content until God lands the right country house in our lap.
  • Our family dog is old and having kidney issues, I know she won't be with us for much longer.
  • high school friend is dying from cancer and leaving behind a wonderful husband and 5 kids, how I weep for their family.
Drew's Sunflower Impression

Starry Night - by Drew
  • Kids are loving art class and drawing and creating the most amazing pictures and objects, I love watching them use their imaginations.
  • refinance finally went through!
  • We are playing more games and spending more quality time cuddling on the couch reading books.
  • I finally have gotten into using my Library card - lost of great books ordered and ready when I get to the library! I just ordered The Well Trained Mind - I didn't realize how big of a book it was, it might take me longer than 3 weeks!
  • ACA is almost over and we can take a much needed break!!!! Drew did a great job and we had such a great experience!
  • Abby potty trained and is even dry at night, she is progressing in speech and is up to age appropriate conversations. 
  • Chris Tomlin's CD has been a huge source of worship and encouragement these past few weeks!
  • Spring is here and we're outside a lot more!
  • We're on track to have Gabe's 1st half of Kinder completed by May (he begged to start in January even though he wouldn't start kinder officially until August) and Drew will be done with 1st grade! These boys just can't help but put a smile on your face!
  • Gabe loves homeschool and begs to do his work every morning, such a change from what I experienced with Drew.

Easter Pictures - Set 2

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Easter 2013

What a sweet Easter we had! My mother baked us the most wonderful meal, we celebrated a Risen Lord with fellow believers at church, sang great worship songs, and then my mom planned an egg hunt for the kids. I love my family! The kids were so excited. We managed a quick trip to the park after church for a photo session - thankfully I still remembered how to use the time delay and we got a few family photos.

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

He gives power to the weak...

School is winding down for Drew - his curriculum is almost done and his part time school is over in just 5 weeks. I have learned some much from ACA this year, it was a lot of work but I've seen Drew grow in so many areas. He is finally writing and spelling and enjoying art without being prompted. The other morning he said he wanted to write his Grandma a thank you note - its a small thing for most, but for this momma  that was huge. He spelled everything himself in legible print with spaces - wow!

I have been so impressed with the material and information Drew has learned, this next year we will imitate much of what ACA taught us about time management and organization and curriculum.

Gabe started Kindergarten in January - at home - and is coming along! He is much more disciplined so his school work is complete in less than two hours. We are working a lot on his handwriting and reading - which is coming along so much quicker than I though. I know your not suppose to compare children  - God made them all unique and special - but I am so thankful that my second child is a more traditional learner - two outside the  box learners may have done me in! I am just amazed when Gabe reads a book, struggles with a sight word a few times and then initiates a way to remember the word - as a rule Gabe only has to see/read a word about 15 times and he has it mastered vs Drew which is around 100,  Gabe is struggling a little more in Math, which I guess shouldn't surprise me since Drew is really good in math. They are so different yet the best of friends and wonderful to work with - most days! I am blessed to have such differnt children who love the Lord and love learning.

This morning we were talking about  Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and how God revealed Himself to Abraham. Drew  wanted to know why God picked Abraham and not his father Tara. The questions these kids come up with are very high level for my brain - it must be those catechism's they memorized. That lead to a conversation about the sovereignty of God and that faith is believing that God's plan for our lives which will not produce our own benefits, but God's ultimate glory. That was a hard conversation because I had just shared with the kids about a prayer that didn't go the way we had hoped. A friend from High School has had cancer for the last year, we've been praying for her and her family, just recently they were told there was nothing more that could be done. My kids were heartbroken, I can't imagine how her own 5 children and husband can handle such news. There just are no words, yet I know that I must cling to the scriptures and the promises of God. As I shared with the kids - "God's ways are not our ways..." then we searched the scriptures for some of God's promises in scripture. I love teaching my children as I myself  question and struggle walking the path of righteousness. I am beginning to relate more with Jesus,  in the gospels, who taught and corrected and lead His own 12 disciples.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Matthew 11:28-29
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

and my personal favorite....

Isaiah 40:29-31
He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint.

Romans 8:37-39
No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.